"The strong are not always vigourous,
the wise not always ready.
The brave not always courageous,
and the joyous not always happy.
Charles H. Spurgeon (1834-1892)
Charles H. Spurgeon fought depression and severe anxiety throughout his lifetime. Yet he kept on preaching throughout his illnesses and put out a prodigious 3500 sermons and 135 books. And he said he hated writing!
Out of depression can come blessing, even though while in it not much but agony can be perceived. God sends suffering in order to teach, like it says in Romans 5:3-5 "knowing that suffering produces endurance, 4 and endurance produces character,
and character produces hope, 5 and hope does not put us to shame"
Waiting on God in the midst of darkness takes extreme effort yet the soul does wait for Him more than watchmen wait for the morning (referencing Psalm 130).
God's mercy and grace are new every morning. His word is my lamp and the light to my feet. His praise is continually in my mouth and I thank Him for His leading.
Bless the Lord, O my soul,
and all that is within me,
bless his holy name!
Bless the Lord, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits,
who forgives all your iniquity,
who heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit,
who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy,
Mikayla enjoyed her time at the Barnabas Ministries MK Reentry program. She made many new friends and learned "a lot."
Thanks for praying for her!
Mikayla is attending a ten day MK reentry program at Cedarville University in Cedarville, Ohio put on by Barnabas Ministries.
Kirsten and I are enjoying a few days of retreat at Baan Sabai in Aurora, IN (http://paracletos.org/baan-sabai/)
Please keep us in your prayers - Kurt, Ben and James as they are in the Philippines; Mikayla as she transitions to college; for James' adoption to be completed soon; for safe travels for us; and for each of us to grow in His grace and shine His light. Thanks!
Mikayla, Kirsten and I are in the USA to get Mikayla ready for college. We arrived today at noon.
We had an uneventful flight from Manila to Detroit and are now enjoying time with family. We are also trying to stay awake until 7p to fight through jetlag.
O Lord, grant me to greet the coming day in peace.
Help me in all things to rely upon thy holy will.
In every hour of the day reveal thy will to me.
Bless my dealings with all who surround me.
Teach me to treat all that comes to me throughout the day with peace of soul, and with firm conviction that thy will governs all.
In all my deeds and words guide my thoughts and feelings.
In unforeseen events let me not forget that all are sent by thee.
Teach me to act firmly and wisely, without embittering and embarrassing others.
Give me strength to bear the fatigue of the coming day with all
that it shall bring.
Direct my will, teach me to pray, pray thou thyself in me.
Metropolitan Philaret of Moscow