Letting Go

Jerard's wheelchair will return to the foundation that donated it to us so another child can use it.

Jerard's strollers have gone to Mercy Maternity Clinic for some poorer Filipino moms to use for their newborns.

Elmo, Jerard's hankerchiefs and one or two toys that seemed to hold his interest are being kept here for safe keeping.

Not only is my heart letting go of my son,
our house is letting go of tangibles so others can be blessed by them.
Yet a tearing happens at the sight of the wheelchair going to storage, at the sight of the strollers leaving the gate for the last time.

And my heart grieves.

I am thankful Jerard is free from pain and a body that wasn't working for him.
I miss rubbing his head, rubbing his arms and legs, holding him...

Grieving takes time
and I press on in my Saviour's love

Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am in distress; my eye is wasted from grief; my soul and my body also.
for my life is spent with sorrow, and my years with sighing;
my strength fails... and my bones waste away.
I trust in you, O Lord; _I say, "You are my God."
.....My times are in your hand; The Lord preserves the
faithful but abundantly repays the one who acts in pride.
.....Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord!
excerpts from Psalm 31